yey!!!finally...

yes3...im freakin updatin u guys abt my life...but actually...im jus freakin bored sia...currently at school nw...in internet and web technologies class....its a stupid class...hahaha....i mean..im lyk so damn bad at computers and here i am..learnin hw to deal with microsoft frontpage...gee...but oh wells...lemme jus get thru dis lyk i do each week...nt dat its entirely boring cuz my classmates are lyk shouting non stop...for no freakin reasons...haha..mad class im in..wakakakaka...well so...the teacher is lyk babblin abt dis..but personally..i tink dat its lyk dumb...cuz we hav the book...and we can lyk so learn it on our own...of cuz la...its jus abt whether we will do it without a teacher's guidance or not...hahahah....for me...i dunt i'll do it if she never go thru...so ok...is dis good or bad?....omigod..im like contradicting myself...darn darn stupid..haix....well..ok la...since im jus blabbing nonsense..gonna go off nw..toodles~

tinking of old times...

yes...i am tinkin abt old timess....jus tinkin abt it..makes me wonder how i pulled thru all the ordeals i went thru....how strong i was to overcome all dis shit at such a young age...or maybe its cuz i didnt care enuf..and dats y im hurting so much now...in my adolescent yrs....if so...why did i cry every night i went to bed?...why would i wake up each day with swollen eyes,knowin dats hes never gonna be der for me?....damn....didnt noe i was hurtin dis much.....typin abt dis...actually makes me cry....beneath these fake smiles,there's really nothing but hatred and pain....dat sounds so cliche but heck...its the truth...damn..usually...i dunt show to ppl dat im sad...but this is exceptional....dammit.....sometimes i jus feel like giving up..cuz it hurts so much....damn the world...

weee~~~

yesterday.....i went to kak bas's pit.....ok wait....dats lyk such a boring way to start thissss!!!!..damn!!!...

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HEY MANNNNN!!!WHHUTSUP YALLL?!?!?!?!?!?.....haix..ok...im jus tryin too hard la ok...hahah..nwae..went to changi beach to kak bas's pit...was ok la...only finger food....according to nola...yea....met up with kak bas and all those wonderful peeps who have been missed by me..hahah....yea wellss ok.....beach wasnt dat windy..its been sucha long time since i last went to d beach...but i lyk ecb better....hahahah...nwae....Oral Comm ICA is lyk in 2 days time..and i havent even started on it...damn!!!!...hahah..ok laaa...nutting else to sayyy...soooo...toodles...hey..its been sucha long time since i wrote sumting of my own uh??..maybe i shud start soon..but im nt feelin sad or anyting lately...i tink im deprived of any sad feelings.....hahah...oh wells...nwae...here are some pics taken....ENJOY!!!! *here*

Ola....im here updating cuz of oh-so-wonderful Aaron who reminded me dat i actually have a blog....so here i am..updating...haha..so hows my life??..im doin quite fine with everyting....hah..today was my one of my stupid days...i actually took the wrong train to school today..i took the one headign to pasri ris siaaa...and i only realised i was on the wrong train when i was in simei...and when i realised it...i was too late....doors were ald closed....why wasnt i aware...oh cuz i was busy studying my stupid statistics notes and my ears were plugged in with "hips don't lie" by shakira ft wyclef jean repeatedly..haix....and i was lyk rushing to school...i made it to school with only 2 mins to spare from being late.....lyk thank god siaaa!!..den i actually saw isa strolling outside...hahah..said he didnt wan to go to lecture..and actually skipped it..hahah....tsk3..bad boy huh??...anyhow...lyk whutever..its his life....lalalal.....

dats all laaa...nuting else to saaayyyyy..feelin ever-so sleepy.....so..bbye!!!

its been such a long long long long time.....

well hey!!guess whos backback again...nani's back...tell a fren...hahah...Lame Ass as always...so..hey....im jus plain bored la....haha

so hows nyp Life yaLL ask??..hahs...weLL...its ok....abit above average..with rahman aka tyson being in d same class...i've never felt dat attached b4..hahaha...wells....im nt gonna tell every little detail....jus....gonna talk abt today..

so hey...todays fri...but actually...i dunt hav class..but der was poa make up lesson for today....yea...started at 3...finish at 5...den me,marcia,fahreeq and su headed to city hall to jus crap..haha...as in walk ard....yes....walk3...went to bk at marina square to eat...den off to esplanade...to jus chill ya noee....had a fun time talkin to dem..yey!!...haha...laugh and crap and den laugh summore and den crap..hahah...den all of us decided to see alvin skate at somerset...den of we were to somerset...haha...it was lyk 9 when we reached somerset...haha..gt to see him make some moves...Lovvveeeelllllyyy...hahaha...and den he shook his bonbons..haha...NOICE...hahahah...wells...den we decided to jus go home....but we walked to orchard mrt....and den...home was the next and last destination...

so..yes...dat was my day...anyway...SW is one of the most important thhing that occured to me...ppl are fun...they're nt so selfish....ok la..nt all....but u noe..most of it.....anan..im so blessed to hav demmmm....Loves it..ok la....this is gettin boring..so bye!.....

P.S:im changin my skin....dis one sucks!!..*blueks*

everyday's gettin boring-er and im running out of cash....its so runnin low...but oh wells...whutever..hahaha..im jus fuckin bored uh..nyp's orientation's coming up....on this wed....12th of apr...it has to fall on dat fateful day....and bcus of dat..im deprived of celebratign it with my beloved frens....pri and sec school frens...haix...nwae..spend the nyte with nadiah and din!!!...its been such a long time since i last hung out with dem....it was great uh!!!..Loves it...as usual..me and nadiah got wacky and KRAZEE with makin weird noises..hahah....and din too was lyk u noe...layan-ning us...haha...Loves Him and Her....my bestest pals....im lyk the closest with dem both..hahah..dats all la....nwae...im gg to meet nad tml....gonna go otu and hav fun ya noe...lyk we used too...but such a sad ting dat its no longer with the others...haix..oh wells....good times pass by fast.....damn..i really miss the old times..

minahs wanna LIE!minahs wanna CRY!minahs wanna FUCK!...oh wells...im jus so so so so so FUCKIN disgusted with minahs....fuck o fuck o fuck o fuck o....lalala....dunt ask y...

so my day was ok..met up with sarah first to hav lunch at LJS dat i didnt finish...was supposed to go to work at 12 but heck...dey cancelled it and dey had to go amk at nyte...im lyk...wth...are u mad??..i'd rather sleep man.its lyk...i havent had enuf sleep as it is..wanna let me work summore....later get scolded..ahaha...den hw?...ya so...den i spend the whole day with sarah and nat...watched keeping mum...bloody hell was it good..hahah...den met up with small boy for a while....lalal....till 8.15...den go back...hahaha....

dats all uh..actually..imlyk lazy to update...so...ya..bye!!

HI!!...had a fun fun fun day today with my gfs...hahah..started out with me meetin nam and nad and off we were heading to bugis....went to crap at bugis with nuting much to do..jus window shopping..and nam was lyk wastin a whole lot of time at body shop without buying anyting..hahah...i pity the salesgirl attending to us...after viewin bits and pieces of bugis...we all decided to grab sumtin to eat...cuz i was dead hungry.l..ok..nt dead hungry...but u noe...hahaha...after dat we headed to borders at wheelock place to meet kak ayu and kak lin..hahah..found dem..and den off we were to LJS at shaw house...hahah....kak ayu laughs oh so loudly...and den when ppl stares...kak lin will be lyk.."ape stare2?tk penah nmpk org ketawe ke?"..haha..gangsta in d house...nwae...dey are the cutest bunch of ppl uh..who knew dey were so much fun?!!?..hahaha...well...dey surprised me...den walked ard town for a bit....bought a Lame ass calvin klein parfume...hahah...den of we were to esplanade...didnt noe whut d hell we were doin der...but oh wells..ghahah...den to marina square...chilled at Mac for a while...met up with aidil...and walked and crapped for a while..hahahaha..nwae...i bought a ripcurl bag(flash and splash at city link-65 bux),a FOX top(FOX women at marina square-26 bux),op 3/4 pants(OP at wisma atria-28 bux)...i tink dats it uh..hahaha...well..my day ended with me meetin my small boy..hahah...talked for a bit....yea...dats all....

ok uh...i dunt hav anyting else to say...so im jus endign here...nyte!

i sooooooo LOVE jon bon jovi!!!!hes so so so so sizzlin HOT man!!!...hahah..i jus watched him on oprah and woarh!....fuckin HOT as ever!!!..and gt dis one scene ryte....he was lyk..."thanks BABES"...OMG!!!!....dats so totally my word....hahahah...ok..maybe nt only mine...with nola as well..hahahah...hes so HOT and filthy rich..he donated USD $1 million to oprahs show...fuckin rich ryte??..and hes lyk an eye candy..hahahaha..Loveeeee-Ly...wuuho.....imlyk so hyper ryte nw..jus tinkin abt jon bon jovi....hes HOT!!!!lalala....haix...i want to see him uh..how come he never hold a concert in Singapore??...if he does...im lyk so goin..but see first uh..wudnt be fun to go jus alone u nw...must bring a couple of frens...BETTER!!!...PRAYIN...DAT he comes to SIngapore...hahahaha....KEEP ON WISHING SIA!!!!!!...

**its FUCKIN FUCKIN FUCKIN negligence**

its been a while since i last updated huh...oh wells...nw here i come to update u with my life...so here goes...

lets talk abt startin school...for some reason...im so not lookin forward to it...dunt noe why...jus dunt too feel to hyped abt it...LaLaLa....skool suck...i jus wanna hav fun...*girls jus wanna hav fun*...yada yada yada...

work...im so gonna miss workin at moto...moto is lyk fun nw...so yea...ppl der are all fun..Loves dem to pieces...gonna miss all the mak ciks and the gossips...oh wells...i can always hav gossips...hahah....but..its lyk wit diff ppl...im lyk even talkin lyk a makcik!!!...hahah..dunt noe whether to take dat as a compliment or insult..oh wells....nwae..gonna miss cik gunting,cik teka teki..hahaha..kak bas...cik su...aww man...jus tinkin abt nt seein dem as often as i used to jus makes me sad...HAD...FAS..HAHA....most wonderful guy frens at moto...if any way u guys are readin dis...sorry uh..if i lyk hurt yall in sum way or another...keep in contact ya!??!...must make sure....hahahah..oh wells...

so hey..whut happened lately?...my latest outin was wit the moto peeps...an outing to east coast...wow...fun fun fun fun..!!!...hahaha...we played truth or dare...hahahah...fun!!...joked lyk mad...hahah..gt dis one incident...cik su actualli used A DIGITAL CAMERA the way she used the normal ancient camere...hahah..so lyk..she looked thru the lens lor....i was lyk laughin the loudest..mean..but yea!!...funny!!...hurhurhur....whut the hell...kak bas's children are all so MOFO cute man...especially the twins uh...fadilla and fazirah..and faresha....and farahin....dey are all cute uh...Loves dem!!!hahahah...

well..i guess dats all uh..nutin much..jus feelin confused dis few days...yea....but cant tell any further...haix...i so dunt noe whut to do uh!!...fuck it..im so bloody problematic!!!...damn...

**its FUCKIN FUCKIN FUCKIN FUCKIN negligence**

dats a quote frm "fragile" btw..hahah

TIMES???...MOTO???...TIMES????MOTO???...man...i DUNT noe which one TO go..its lyk..if i go times..its so gonna be relaxing..its lyk..i can even lie down to do the work man...but MOTO??.....so bloody diff...its too rushing...and i HATE rushing..and ders lyk a bigger possibility dat we might go home late if i go work at moto...damn...with all the bad points pointin at moto...why shud i go moto..??..wells...i guess im jus goin moto...damn...and i havent even wash my smoke...damn3...

so..whut else can i talk abt?...oh ya soccer!!...was fun man..hahah...matches were great..even the clique was great...such fun ppl...LYK ME!!!...aahah...den..first match against sum team...we won..den second match against SENORE-TARDS...we WON man!!ahahah..all thanz to nola's goal...damn nice...anyhows...its lyk..im d defender of the game...last man dey say...well..i dunt noe whut the hell is dat...hahah..but it was fun la..sum bloody player kept kickin my thigh..oh wells...fun to get kicked now and den...bLeargh~~

yet again i LIE
disapproving to this fact
i jus dunt noe why
am i loving him only in abstract?


why do i do dis?
is the wrong conscience pricking me?
now HE realises dats somethings amiss
oh pls....jus let me be...


im gettin all confused
abt whether we're meant to be
and im gettin my heart bruised
when my emotions cant run free

ok...dis is jus sumtin i wrote...no connections with whoever...was jus tinkin abt my blog url...u noe...addictive lying...and den...i had an "inspiration" for a title...LYING...yeah..really...got no connection with me...i swear REDZUAN..hahahaha.....wth.....CiaO!!

f u c k

You thought you did everything
All I did was to just smile
But to me,everything was nothing
You never knew it was all so vile

Lacking concern,I still strived
Did it all for a better "us"
It's HARD to keep it all inside
It hurts but i know it's a must

Leaving me ALONE,like you always do
Crippled by love that you never gave
Crying alone,FAR FAR away from you
On the pretext that I'm always BRAVE.

oh my god!!...its been forever since i last updated my blog..hahah...and nw..i finally decided to update it...wells....hws my life??...its nt been goin the way i want it to be...but im copin well..hahah..uh..work's been tiring...most of the times go back late...yeah.lyk ard 11..but the past 2 days...der havent been any work...so im jus chillin at home...ahah..nwae...i dunt tink i quite understand the way dat i am...sumtimes i dunt even noe whut i wan...but theres dis sayin.the person u noe best is u...but contradictingly...dats jus the opposite for me..haha..and im laughin at the fact dat i dun understand myself...i mean...if i dunt understand myself...how the hell do i expect myself to understand someone else?...damn..i've got some big issues to handle..hahah..oh wells...i guess dats jus the barrier that im nt gonna break..hahah...dunt noe how to anyways..hahah....oh wellsssss...

The Sun's rays pierced my eyes

And i knew a new day had begun

Another day to let down this disguise

But in this very act that i drown

Why did I still play this game?

Just be myself I did say

But who am I to blame?

He made me this way

So all this while I played along

Though it left a deep cut in my heart

Knew from the beginning we dont belong

But never once did i thought to depart

Now im left all alone

Shedding tears of despair

Now i feel like hope is gone

And all this didnt seem fair...

something i wrote..way way way way back.....toodLes~

LaLaLa..suddenLy i feeL Lyk updatin...but ders Lyk totaLLy nuting for me to write...aye..boredom induLges me...oh weLLs...Life's nt dat bored i guess.....yeah...been goin out with peepz...and MOM....yeah...mom...hahah...been doin noting LateLY..aint workin..jus chiLLin at home sumtimes...oh weLLs....so..whut am i to say now??....aiyo....damn Lazy La..bye La...

**chikochikochiko**

Re:this is Lyk a Bloody routine

i've jus reaLised...after today..dat my Life is LYk a routine...its Lyk..either i go out or i totaLLy stay at home....when i stay at home..it gets so bored....dat i even started doing housework...and worse off....i tink im addicted to it...YESSSS!!!...HOUSEWORK!!!....of aLL tings to be addicted to....hw sad can my Lyf get??....oh weLLs....

so..whut eLse can i taLk abt...i cant reaLLy taLk abt personaL stuff here...cuz i dunt wish to reveaL aLL my PersonaL Life to Let every Tom,Dick and Harry to read...*sucks for u*....haha..dat was a quote frm Light Affair...i find dat quite amusing...nwae...my fav quote nowadays..."did u jus make dat up".....hahah..its great reaLLy....Lyk i tink i keep saying it...and redzuan's sick of it..hahah.....but the great ting is everyone seem to noe where that Line came from.....oh weLLs....

so how am i feeLin nowadays....weLL...its been kinda a mixed up week for me...wad i meant is dat...for dis week...i've experienced uLtra happiness,happiness,major sadness,sadness...major angry....aiya....Lotsa stuff La...aLot of mixed up feeLings too i might say...but im aLways mixed up nowadays...very very very very confused....oh weLLs....

hmmm....i dunt hav anyting eLse to say.....so....bye..

**Liar Bids "Oh weLLs..."**

its been forever since i Last updated dis pitifuL bLog...but i jus wanna say dat everytings been goin fine..and im gonna update reaL soon....when....im ntn Lazy...hahaha...ryte..i miss my bf...hahahah.....and everyone eLse too!!!

**Liar Lying In Her Own Abandoned WorLd**

Re:Who noes that finding courses could be so GODDAMN difficuLt???

hahah...frm the nick...u guys shouLd noe dat it wasnt an easy task tryin to choose wad i want to do....those 12 sLots were d most difficuLt decisions in my Life....nwae...i've decided.....these are my decided 12 courses...

1.Accountancy-SP

2.Sports and WeLLness Management-NYP

3.Business Administration-SP

4.Banking and FinanciaL Services-SP

5.Optometry-SP

6.Business Information TechnoLogy-SP

7.Pharmacy-NP

8.RetaiL Management-TP

9.FinanciaL Business Informatics-TP

10.Accountancy and Finance-NYP

11.Sports and Exercise Sciences-RP

12.AppareL Design and Merchandising-TP

yeah...so these are my choices....ya...a Lot of business courses huh??..weLL..im business minded....hahah!!!...whut crap.....so dats it La....dats d entry for today....and btw....i miss my boyfriend so so so so so much!!!....yeah.....see...i toLd everyone dat i miss u!!!...ok crap...peace out!!...haha

**Liar Lying in Her AbanDoned Dark WorLd**

weLL....i havent been updating for d past 2 days..was jus pLain Lazy La actuaLLy....so heres my updates....for the previous dayz....

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2 days ago..it was...WEDNESDAY!!!!

wednesday:had a kinda weird movie marathon at my house....hahah....started with watchin dis Lame No Doubt introduced by noLa...or shud i say dat noLa is d Lame one??...weLL...whutever it is...it made me hooked on No Doubt's songs man...they so totaLLy rock!!!...hahahnwae..after sumtime faLLin asLeep whiLe Listenin to No Doubt...asmah decided to make the prawn fritters...i heLped to sheLL the prawn!!!..hahah...and so did sakinah....and asmah of cuz...den i fried some fries...hahah..funny sia...sakinah and asmah was scared of the hot oiL..im nt saying dat im nt...but i guess im jus used to it..hahaha...whutever...nwae..fry here...fry der...and food was ready..dey actuaLLy wanted to order in canadian pizza....but i didnt noe how it ended up to dem eating maggi provided by my househoLd..hahah....cute..nwae....so dey eat away....den!!!!...my vcd cum dvd pLayer cudnt work..fark it....tried for Lyk a coupLe of mins..den gave up....so watched it at pc....first reaL movie we watched was SIX..it was a thaiLand ghost movie....yea..and it ended up with noLa,nuraini and asmah sLeepin thru haLf of it...hahaha....onLy me and sakinah was awake...and i jus reaLised dat inah is such a scaredy cat..hahah..no offence inah...but it was cute La...haha..after den..watched pontianak 2...yea...until 7 sumtin...ryte...so dat was my day on wed....

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one days ago it was.......thursday!!!!

thurday:met wan for a whiLe....kinda send him to work....waLked thru CityLink to Suntec..i dunt even noe whut im doin der...hahah...ryte...jus waLked wit him...got crappy for a bit....haha..as aLways...ya..den he send me back to city haLL mrt station....frm der took mrt to nam's house to Look at grave and jus taLk....hahah..yeah...fun havin a BF!!!!...hahah..ryte/...went home at ard evenin....7 pLus La...

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today is.....FRIDAY!!!

hmm...so how was my day today??..its started with me meeting noLa,namira,adiLa,syidah...met at tampines area...den ate at LJS...after dat..took neoprints with my wonderfuL ppL...hahah...its been a whiLe since i met adiLa and syidah...hahah...i miss dem Loads...especiaLLy adiLa!!!....i wanna meet her soon man..hahah....nwae....after dat...gt my resuLts..ryte...its was ok i suppose....wanna noe more abt it...ask me personaLLy....cuz im nt gonna tell here....hahah..dena after resuLts...weirdLy..back home i went..wanted to jus chiLL..but wan smsed to say he wants to meet me..and so i met him ard 6....yea..we jus sat ard......

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yeah..so dis is my Latest update....to those who did FCUKIN weLL for O's....congrats....for those who didnt,uh....keep trying aye??....ryte....

**Liar Lying In heR oWn Dark WorLD**