TIMES???...MOTO???...TIMES????MOTO???...man...i DUNT noe which one TO go..its lyk..if i go times..its so gonna be relaxing..its lyk..i can even lie down to do the work man...but MOTO??.....so bloody diff...its too rushing...and i HATE rushing..and ders lyk a bigger possibility dat we might go home late if i go work at moto...damn...with all the bad points pointin at moto...why shud i go moto..??..wells...i guess im jus goin moto...damn...and i havent even wash my smoke...damn3...

so..whut else can i talk abt?...oh ya soccer!!...was fun man..hahah...matches were great..even the clique was great...such fun ppl...LYK ME!!!...aahah...den..first match against sum team...we won..den second match against SENORE-TARDS...we WON man!!ahahah..all thanz to nola's goal...damn nice...anyhows...its lyk..im d defender of the game...last man dey say...well..i dunt noe whut the hell is dat...hahah..but it was fun la..sum bloody player kept kickin my thigh..oh wells...fun to get kicked now and den...bLeargh~~

yet again i LIE
disapproving to this fact
i jus dunt noe why
am i loving him only in abstract?


why do i do dis?
is the wrong conscience pricking me?
now HE realises dats somethings amiss
oh pls....jus let me be...


im gettin all confused
abt whether we're meant to be
and im gettin my heart bruised
when my emotions cant run free

ok...dis is jus sumtin i wrote...no connections with whoever...was jus tinkin abt my blog url...u noe...addictive lying...and den...i had an "inspiration" for a title...LYING...yeah..really...got no connection with me...i swear REDZUAN..hahahaha.....wth.....CiaO!!

f u c k

You thought you did everything
All I did was to just smile
But to me,everything was nothing
You never knew it was all so vile

Lacking concern,I still strived
Did it all for a better "us"
It's HARD to keep it all inside
It hurts but i know it's a must

Leaving me ALONE,like you always do
Crippled by love that you never gave
Crying alone,FAR FAR away from you
On the pretext that I'm always BRAVE.

oh my god!!...its been forever since i last updated my blog..hahah...and nw..i finally decided to update it...wells....hws my life??...its nt been goin the way i want it to be...but im copin well..hahah..uh..work's been tiring...most of the times go back late...yeah.lyk ard 11..but the past 2 days...der havent been any work...so im jus chillin at home...ahah..nwae...i dunt tink i quite understand the way dat i am...sumtimes i dunt even noe whut i wan...but theres dis sayin.the person u noe best is u...but contradictingly...dats jus the opposite for me..haha..and im laughin at the fact dat i dun understand myself...i mean...if i dunt understand myself...how the hell do i expect myself to understand someone else?...damn..i've got some big issues to handle..hahah..oh wells...i guess dats jus the barrier that im nt gonna break..hahah...dunt noe how to anyways..hahah....oh wellsssss...

The Sun's rays pierced my eyes

And i knew a new day had begun

Another day to let down this disguise

But in this very act that i drown

Why did I still play this game?

Just be myself I did say

But who am I to blame?

He made me this way

So all this while I played along

Though it left a deep cut in my heart

Knew from the beginning we dont belong

But never once did i thought to depart

Now im left all alone

Shedding tears of despair

Now i feel like hope is gone

And all this didnt seem fair...

something i wrote..way way way way back.....toodLes~