Shouting Helps A Great Deal

i didnt know this for sure.but i just realised that
it really did.lately,i feel so damn fucked up
and negative abt everyting.i guess im keepin
too many issues in me and i nv learn to let it out.



that is beside the point.so,anyway with all this anger
in me,it distracts me from keepin my cool while
playing the netball game today.i ended up shouting
at my team players right at the first quarter!
I NEVER EVER DI THAT B4!!!!!
well,im kinda known for being too lenient on ppl.
so it kinda shocked me that i was shouting my ass
off in the court.



i was still shouting to get ppl to work their butt off during
the second quarter.at that point of time,it didnt feel weird
at all.but thinking back,it seems awfully crazyyy....
2nd quarter den ended and weird enuf,I FELT
GGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRREEEAAAAAAAAAAATTT!!!!!
wow...the feelings are damn good man!like as if everyting
had been lifted off from my shoulders....
I SO LOVE NETBALL!!!!!...



3rd quarter started out great!!!!i got my first ever shot
to be able to shoot again in a game.the last time i was a shooter
was......LIKE AEONS AGO!!!...i guess i still had in me.
haha.first shot,went in with no prob.
2nd shot,FUH!!!!A TOTAL FLUSH!!!
by then, my head started to get a little "big"
and all hell broke loose.hah.of cuz im jus exaggerating,but
i knew it was all luck to start with.after that 2nd shot,
i dunt noe why, but nerves got the better of me.
haha.it finally sank in that every shot,every point depends on me
haha.talk abt no pressure.butterfingers get in the way, jelly like legs
wobble like crazy and thus,it concludes that i jus suck!!
i tink i'd better practice more.



4th quarter was such a bloody shite ass crap!!!umpires suck
at judging and suddenly without any contact to my opponent,
the ball slipped out of her hand.of cuz, i was in front of her.so i
know that she slipped it off.i was a good 1metre away from her
but i was charged with contact.damn!!!..
another one cheap ass shite to jus show that they are bias is the
3 second rule.i have this habit to bend my knees 2 times
while shooting in order to trick my opponent guarding me.
I SWEAR I ONLY DID 2 BENDS AND *PEEEEEEETTTT*
a whistle was blown against me for commiting the 3 second rule.
i got so damn pissed.


but overall,i really was feeling a bit better..YEAY.....but i still
feel like fuck now..