minahs wanna LIE!minahs wanna CRY!minahs wanna FUCK!...oh wells...im jus so so so so so FUCKIN disgusted with minahs....fuck o fuck o fuck o fuck o....lalala....dunt ask y...

so my day was ok..met up with sarah first to hav lunch at LJS dat i didnt finish...was supposed to go to work at 12 but heck...dey cancelled it and dey had to go amk at nyte...im lyk...wth...are u mad??..i'd rather sleep man.its lyk...i havent had enuf sleep as it is..wanna let me work summore....later get scolded..ahaha...den hw?...ya so...den i spend the whole day with sarah and nat...watched keeping mum...bloody hell was it good..hahah...den met up with small boy for a while....lalal....till 8.15...den go back...hahaha....

dats all uh..actually..imlyk lazy to update...so...ya..bye!!

HI!!...had a fun fun fun day today with my gfs...hahah..started out with me meetin nam and nad and off we were heading to bugis....went to crap at bugis with nuting much to do..jus window shopping..and nam was lyk wastin a whole lot of time at body shop without buying anyting..hahah...i pity the salesgirl attending to us...after viewin bits and pieces of bugis...we all decided to grab sumtin to eat...cuz i was dead hungry.l..ok..nt dead hungry...but u noe...hahaha...after dat we headed to borders at wheelock place to meet kak ayu and kak lin..hahah..found dem..and den off we were to LJS at shaw house...hahah....kak ayu laughs oh so loudly...and den when ppl stares...kak lin will be lyk.."ape stare2?tk penah nmpk org ketawe ke?"..haha..gangsta in d house...nwae...dey are the cutest bunch of ppl uh..who knew dey were so much fun?!!?..hahaha...well...dey surprised me...den walked ard town for a bit....bought a Lame ass calvin klein parfume...hahah...den of we were to esplanade...didnt noe whut d hell we were doin der...but oh wells..ghahah...den to marina square...chilled at Mac for a while...met up with aidil...and walked and crapped for a while..hahahaha..nwae...i bought a ripcurl bag(flash and splash at city link-65 bux),a FOX top(FOX women at marina square-26 bux),op 3/4 pants(OP at wisma atria-28 bux)...i tink dats it uh..hahaha...well..my day ended with me meetin my small boy..hahah...talked for a bit....yea...dats all....

ok uh...i dunt hav anyting else to say...so im jus endign here...nyte!

i sooooooo LOVE jon bon jovi!!!!hes so so so so sizzlin HOT man!!!...hahah..i jus watched him on oprah and woarh!....fuckin HOT as ever!!!..and gt dis one scene ryte....he was lyk..."thanks BABES"...OMG!!!!....dats so totally my word....hahahah...ok..maybe nt only mine...with nola as well..hahahah...hes so HOT and filthy rich..he donated USD $1 million to oprahs show...fuckin rich ryte??..and hes lyk an eye candy..hahahaha..Loveeeee-Ly...wuuho.....imlyk so hyper ryte nw..jus tinkin abt jon bon jovi....hes HOT!!!!lalala....haix...i want to see him uh..how come he never hold a concert in Singapore??...if he does...im lyk so goin..but see first uh..wudnt be fun to go jus alone u nw...must bring a couple of frens...BETTER!!!...PRAYIN...DAT he comes to SIngapore...hahahaha....KEEP ON WISHING SIA!!!!!!...

**its FUCKIN FUCKIN FUCKIN negligence**

its been a while since i last updated huh...oh wells...nw here i come to update u with my life...so here goes...

lets talk abt startin school...for some reason...im so not lookin forward to it...dunt noe why...jus dunt too feel to hyped abt it...LaLaLa....skool suck...i jus wanna hav fun...*girls jus wanna hav fun*...yada yada yada...

work...im so gonna miss workin at moto...moto is lyk fun nw...so yea...ppl der are all fun..Loves dem to pieces...gonna miss all the mak ciks and the gossips...oh wells...i can always hav gossips...hahah....but..its lyk wit diff ppl...im lyk even talkin lyk a makcik!!!...hahah..dunt noe whether to take dat as a compliment or insult..oh wells....nwae..gonna miss cik gunting,cik teka teki..hahaha..kak bas...cik su...aww man...jus tinkin abt nt seein dem as often as i used to jus makes me sad...HAD...FAS..HAHA....most wonderful guy frens at moto...if any way u guys are readin dis...sorry uh..if i lyk hurt yall in sum way or another...keep in contact ya!??!...must make sure....hahahah..oh wells...

so hey..whut happened lately?...my latest outin was wit the moto peeps...an outing to east coast...wow...fun fun fun fun..!!!...hahaha...we played truth or dare...hahahah...fun!!...joked lyk mad...hahah..gt dis one incident...cik su actualli used A DIGITAL CAMERA the way she used the normal ancient camere...hahah..so lyk..she looked thru the lens lor....i was lyk laughin the loudest..mean..but yea!!...funny!!...hurhurhur....whut the hell...kak bas's children are all so MOFO cute man...especially the twins uh...fadilla and fazirah..and faresha....and farahin....dey are all cute uh...Loves dem!!!hahahah...

well..i guess dats all uh..nutin much..jus feelin confused dis few days...yea....but cant tell any further...haix...i so dunt noe whut to do uh!!...fuck it..im so bloody problematic!!!...damn...

**its FUCKIN FUCKIN FUCKIN FUCKIN negligence**

dats a quote frm "fragile" btw..hahah

TIMES???...MOTO???...TIMES????MOTO???...man...i DUNT noe which one TO go..its lyk..if i go times..its so gonna be relaxing..its lyk..i can even lie down to do the work man...but MOTO??.....so bloody diff...its too rushing...and i HATE rushing..and ders lyk a bigger possibility dat we might go home late if i go work at moto...damn...with all the bad points pointin at moto...why shud i go moto..??..wells...i guess im jus goin moto...damn...and i havent even wash my smoke...damn3...

so..whut else can i talk abt?...oh ya soccer!!...was fun man..hahah...matches were great..even the clique was great...such fun ppl...LYK ME!!!...aahah...den..first match against sum team...we won..den second match against SENORE-TARDS...we WON man!!ahahah..all thanz to nola's goal...damn nice...anyhows...its lyk..im d defender of the game...last man dey say...well..i dunt noe whut the hell is dat...hahah..but it was fun la..sum bloody player kept kickin my thigh..oh wells...fun to get kicked now and den...bLeargh~~

yet again i LIE
disapproving to this fact
i jus dunt noe why
am i loving him only in abstract?


why do i do dis?
is the wrong conscience pricking me?
now HE realises dats somethings amiss
oh pls....jus let me be...


im gettin all confused
abt whether we're meant to be
and im gettin my heart bruised
when my emotions cant run free

ok...dis is jus sumtin i wrote...no connections with whoever...was jus tinkin abt my blog url...u noe...addictive lying...and den...i had an "inspiration" for a title...LYING...yeah..really...got no connection with me...i swear REDZUAN..hahahaha.....wth.....CiaO!!

f u c k

You thought you did everything
All I did was to just smile
But to me,everything was nothing
You never knew it was all so vile

Lacking concern,I still strived
Did it all for a better "us"
It's HARD to keep it all inside
It hurts but i know it's a must

Leaving me ALONE,like you always do
Crippled by love that you never gave
Crying alone,FAR FAR away from you
On the pretext that I'm always BRAVE.

oh my god!!...its been forever since i last updated my blog..hahah...and nw..i finally decided to update it...wells....hws my life??...its nt been goin the way i want it to be...but im copin well..hahah..uh..work's been tiring...most of the times go back late...yeah.lyk ard 11..but the past 2 days...der havent been any work...so im jus chillin at home...ahah..nwae...i dunt tink i quite understand the way dat i am...sumtimes i dunt even noe whut i wan...but theres dis sayin.the person u noe best is u...but contradictingly...dats jus the opposite for me..haha..and im laughin at the fact dat i dun understand myself...i mean...if i dunt understand myself...how the hell do i expect myself to understand someone else?...damn..i've got some big issues to handle..hahah..oh wells...i guess dats jus the barrier that im nt gonna break..hahah...dunt noe how to anyways..hahah....oh wellsssss...

The Sun's rays pierced my eyes

And i knew a new day had begun

Another day to let down this disguise

But in this very act that i drown

Why did I still play this game?

Just be myself I did say

But who am I to blame?

He made me this way

So all this while I played along

Though it left a deep cut in my heart

Knew from the beginning we dont belong

But never once did i thought to depart

Now im left all alone

Shedding tears of despair

Now i feel like hope is gone

And all this didnt seem fair...

something i wrote..way way way way back.....toodLes~

LaLaLa..suddenLy i feeL Lyk updatin...but ders Lyk totaLLy nuting for me to write...aye..boredom induLges me...oh weLLs...Life's nt dat bored i guess.....yeah...been goin out with peepz...and MOM....yeah...mom...hahah...been doin noting LateLY..aint workin..jus chiLLin at home sumtimes...oh weLLs....so..whut am i to say now??....aiyo....damn Lazy La..bye La...

**chikochikochiko**

Re:this is Lyk a Bloody routine

i've jus reaLised...after today..dat my Life is LYk a routine...its Lyk..either i go out or i totaLLy stay at home....when i stay at home..it gets so bored....dat i even started doing housework...and worse off....i tink im addicted to it...YESSSS!!!...HOUSEWORK!!!....of aLL tings to be addicted to....hw sad can my Lyf get??....oh weLLs....

so..whut eLse can i taLk abt...i cant reaLLy taLk abt personaL stuff here...cuz i dunt wish to reveaL aLL my PersonaL Life to Let every Tom,Dick and Harry to read...*sucks for u*....haha..dat was a quote frm Light Affair...i find dat quite amusing...nwae...my fav quote nowadays..."did u jus make dat up".....hahah..its great reaLLy....Lyk i tink i keep saying it...and redzuan's sick of it..hahah.....but the great ting is everyone seem to noe where that Line came from.....oh weLLs....

so how am i feeLin nowadays....weLL...its been kinda a mixed up week for me...wad i meant is dat...for dis week...i've experienced uLtra happiness,happiness,major sadness,sadness...major angry....aiya....Lotsa stuff La...aLot of mixed up feeLings too i might say...but im aLways mixed up nowadays...very very very very confused....oh weLLs....

hmmm....i dunt hav anyting eLse to say.....so....bye..

**Liar Bids "Oh weLLs..."**

its been forever since i Last updated dis pitifuL bLog...but i jus wanna say dat everytings been goin fine..and im gonna update reaL soon....when....im ntn Lazy...hahaha...ryte..i miss my bf...hahahah.....and everyone eLse too!!!

**Liar Lying In Her Own Abandoned WorLd**

Re:Who noes that finding courses could be so GODDAMN difficuLt???

hahah...frm the nick...u guys shouLd noe dat it wasnt an easy task tryin to choose wad i want to do....those 12 sLots were d most difficuLt decisions in my Life....nwae...i've decided.....these are my decided 12 courses...

1.Accountancy-SP

2.Sports and WeLLness Management-NYP

3.Business Administration-SP

4.Banking and FinanciaL Services-SP

5.Optometry-SP

6.Business Information TechnoLogy-SP

7.Pharmacy-NP

8.RetaiL Management-TP

9.FinanciaL Business Informatics-TP

10.Accountancy and Finance-NYP

11.Sports and Exercise Sciences-RP

12.AppareL Design and Merchandising-TP

yeah...so these are my choices....ya...a Lot of business courses huh??..weLL..im business minded....hahah!!!...whut crap.....so dats it La....dats d entry for today....and btw....i miss my boyfriend so so so so so much!!!....yeah.....see...i toLd everyone dat i miss u!!!...ok crap...peace out!!...haha

**Liar Lying in Her AbanDoned Dark WorLd**

weLL....i havent been updating for d past 2 days..was jus pLain Lazy La actuaLLy....so heres my updates....for the previous dayz....

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2 days ago..it was...WEDNESDAY!!!!

wednesday:had a kinda weird movie marathon at my house....hahah....started with watchin dis Lame No Doubt introduced by noLa...or shud i say dat noLa is d Lame one??...weLL...whutever it is...it made me hooked on No Doubt's songs man...they so totaLLy rock!!!...hahahnwae..after sumtime faLLin asLeep whiLe Listenin to No Doubt...asmah decided to make the prawn fritters...i heLped to sheLL the prawn!!!..hahah...and so did sakinah....and asmah of cuz...den i fried some fries...hahah..funny sia...sakinah and asmah was scared of the hot oiL..im nt saying dat im nt...but i guess im jus used to it..hahaha...whutever...nwae..fry here...fry der...and food was ready..dey actuaLLy wanted to order in canadian pizza....but i didnt noe how it ended up to dem eating maggi provided by my househoLd..hahah....cute..nwae....so dey eat away....den!!!!...my vcd cum dvd pLayer cudnt work..fark it....tried for Lyk a coupLe of mins..den gave up....so watched it at pc....first reaL movie we watched was SIX..it was a thaiLand ghost movie....yea..and it ended up with noLa,nuraini and asmah sLeepin thru haLf of it...hahaha....onLy me and sakinah was awake...and i jus reaLised dat inah is such a scaredy cat..hahah..no offence inah...but it was cute La...haha..after den..watched pontianak 2...yea...until 7 sumtin...ryte...so dat was my day on wed....

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one days ago it was.......thursday!!!!

thurday:met wan for a whiLe....kinda send him to work....waLked thru CityLink to Suntec..i dunt even noe whut im doin der...hahah...ryte...jus waLked wit him...got crappy for a bit....haha..as aLways...ya..den he send me back to city haLL mrt station....frm der took mrt to nam's house to Look at grave and jus taLk....hahah..yeah...fun havin a BF!!!!...hahah..ryte/...went home at ard evenin....7 pLus La...

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today is.....FRIDAY!!!

hmm...so how was my day today??..its started with me meeting noLa,namira,adiLa,syidah...met at tampines area...den ate at LJS...after dat..took neoprints with my wonderfuL ppL...hahah...its been a whiLe since i met adiLa and syidah...hahah...i miss dem Loads...especiaLLy adiLa!!!....i wanna meet her soon man..hahah....nwae....after dat...gt my resuLts..ryte...its was ok i suppose....wanna noe more abt it...ask me personaLLy....cuz im nt gonna tell here....hahah..dena after resuLts...weirdLy..back home i went..wanted to jus chiLL..but wan smsed to say he wants to meet me..and so i met him ard 6....yea..we jus sat ard......

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yeah..so dis is my Latest update....to those who did FCUKIN weLL for O's....congrats....for those who didnt,uh....keep trying aye??....ryte....

**Liar Lying In heR oWn Dark WorLD**

the topic for today is...FRIENDS....

yes...today..we taLk abt friends....in my opinion...they are two kinds of friends....first kind is...fake friends...weLL...fake friends...whut dey do is.....dey backstab,bitch,Lie to u...oh ya..nt forgetting bein a totaL hypocrite in front of u...jeez..bitches...these are the four major pointers in lookin for a fake friend in ur friends...jeeez...bitches....yea..back to my topic...u shud jus diss dem...wads d use of givin care and concern if dey dun give d same??...ryte??dey'LL jus hurt u....time and again....weLL...maybe u try to talk it out wit dem....and heck...guess whut..it doesnt matter cuz dey stiLL wont change and budge..in fact,dey get worse....so...why??.....why do u even fuckin bothered to get it aLryte for aLL....heres why...

cuz...u r the second kind of friend...this time...its called a real fren...weLL...basicaLLy...whut a real fren do is show u care,be honest with d other partner,forgiving each other no matter whut and never get offended with ther partner....never get offended...weLL...d meaning of offended is dat u get hurt when ur fren did someting or say someting dat u tink it best...but actuaLLy...if ur fren is a real one,dey wud only do dat to show dat dey care and dey feel dat dey shud noe d truth...who y get offended when someone is being honest with ya..??....so..take it in ur stride and try to change for d better...forgiveness is aLways a priority in any friendship...ryte.....

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some of yaLL may tink,"oh damn...its jus another crappy entry from the Liar".but hey..im jus writin qhut i wanna in my blog...dunt lyk it...too bad...go suck it up...

well...for the fake friends out der...maybe u shud change urself..and be a real friend..if nt..mayb u shud try living alone without any form of communication..so u dunt break anyone's heart no more....

for the real friends...dunt change d way u r....cuz..u bring laughter and joy to others...ayte??

**Liar Lying in Her Own Dark WorLd**

work sucked today....

aye man...im particuLarLy upset abt work today..feLt fuckin used whiLe workin man..haix...but...WHUTEVER LA...im so fuckin Lazy to report for work tmL...but hey...if u dun go to work..whut wiLL i do at home??..i dunt want to be stuck at home with nuting to do...dats sucky man...so i guess..i gotta come down to work tmL...and be in a shithoLe dat fuckin sucks...damn...workin worLd is fuckin crueL..and i tot TIMES was WICKED!!!!...damn...haix...its so bLoody unfair....fuck...nt in any mood to fuckin update me bLog....JEEZ!!!!!

**Liar Lying aLone In Her Own Dark WorLd**

jeng jeng jeng....

aye man,today was ok i guess....caught a movie called "Fun With Dick And Jane"....damn..was it funny...dis is nt a qn..but a remark actuaLLy...hahah..it was La..i mean..it has to be..its JIM CARREY man!!!!...he's ma man!!!....hahahah...CooLio...nwae...nt gonna tell u abt the whoLe story..cuz u guys shud catch it urseLf...nwae...watched it at cineLeisure...den after dat bought my chewy chocolates cookies at Mrs FieLds...superb!!!!...the cookies i mean...den took 65 to namira's area to pay my respects to her dead pet who's patheticaLLy buried under her block...hahah...yea...den asked faz and hadri to chiLL for a whiLe with us....taLked crap for a bit and den asked syafiq to come down as weLL....hahah...man..was he quiet..but i guess its aLryte...i tink...hahah...at least he Laughs at some stupid jokes dat we came up with....went home at Lyk 10....yea....tiLL nw...

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------im jus bloggin cuz had toLd me to..hahah...nutin much to say today...hahah..yea...so dis is it...

**Liar Lying aLone In Her Own Dark WorLd**

*no title for today*

so...why am i here??...weLL...i guess im jus bored...so..here i am jus typin whutever i wanna cuz dis my blog...

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i cant take dis anymore

its so hard to keep it aLL

as days go by,it's growing more

i'm jus afraid i might faLL

why dis feeLin u ask?

do i need someone to trust?

it feeLs Lyk im wearing dis mask

unabLe to Let it out and enguLfed in frust

maybe one day i'LL find thou

but i hope it wont be too Late

and hate disslove to love and it'LL grow

and i wunt be stuck in dis state

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aye...dis is crap....but im juss letting it aLL out...feeL free to criticise!!!....its a free worLd...

**Liar Lying aLone In Her Own Dark WorLd**

a day at work

uhm..b4 i start...jus wanna say im stiLL feeLin crappy abt yesterday..but heck...mayb im jus overreacting....WHUTEVER!!!!

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so how was today??....work today was ok i guess...startin was a bit slack...after Lunch den 2k came in...yeah...so i guess we were aLL kinda rushin to finish everytin...yeah...didnt finish aLL 2k...so tmL...im stiLL workin...yeah..but Left onLy 300...wait..y am i teLLin u aLL dis??...haha..ryte..so back to my day..had a G-R-8 time teasing Arfaz...haha..chiLL out dude....hahah...i noe hes nt readin dis...but...i hope u noe its aLL in d name of fun yea??[bet had wiLL teLL him..so had..go ahead and teLL him...haha]...so ya...after work aLL four of us[me,namira,arfaz and had] headed to LJS at bedok...ate der...yeah..was having quite a bit of fun Laughin..as per normal...and gettin to noe Arfaz's brother who's of d same age as me...his name is...Arfa...uh....Arfa-sumting....din quite catch it...so anyway...ya..after dat went handphone suveryin again...Arfaz wanted to change his phone on d dot sia...FUCKIN RICH or whut???...damn...but in d end..nam toLd him not to as she toLd him to survey more pLaces...den actuaLLy...wanted to jus chiLL at my home since im aLone and aLL...might as weLL have some company..but nam couLdnt...and both had and Arfaz wanted to go back to woodLands to chiLL with their other friends...so now...here i am..ALONE....haix...Lyf's fuckin sad....

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dis is it La...hahaha...dat was my pathetic yet contradictingLy fun dae...hahah....

**Liar Lying aLone In My Own Dark WorLd**

caring abt u is d last ting on my mind ryte now

so....whuts up??...im supposed to blog abt yest..but was freakin lazy...today oso gt no mood and actually quite lazy to update..so...jus droppin by....ya..ok bye...

**fuckin the tabLe and no one cares**